why do you live?

things are never in focus until tears drop from your eyes in the middle of the night. Sitting on the hood of your car just thinking out loud. why people love you, how could they hate you. try to imagine what it would be if it wasnt how it is. It's like your on a railroad and you cant stop in time. like your flying one day and the next your in a cage. people wish you are dead, people wish you are dead for money. people think thoughts of horrible thoughts and never care how the world has stopped because of them. No lights for you, they are all the sky. The stars glaring down, cheering you on. They want you. you want them. But no matter what, someone nearby will yell in your ears that it wont ever come true. after your eyes close it comes true, but when they open. Thats when you wonder, is it real when i see the back of my eyelids? is it real when i can taste the ground and break my bones? the dirt on my skin? how can it just happen and never come back. a ticket for there and none for a return. thats when you realize, thats when you breathe, everything will work out soon. there is always a new day