Sunday, June 25, 2006

Hello.Goodbye.

What a strange feeling! How am I supposed to fake this? Is she oblivious to my feelings? What an odd situation. Of all the things that I promised myself I wouldn't partake in are being partook. Should I feel happy or sad? It's not as though I am not happy, it's that I am not satisfied. Satisfy me, please.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Felt it.

perhaps wishing pain isn't the best idea. Your shape is so perfect, it is only too bad that your blind. You'll never see yourself, but not too many ever do. Not too many can look past what haunted reflections display. I speak as though I am special, but I could never be more wrong. I am binded with societys limits. Don't tell me I'm wrong. If everything is possible, then I'm not wrong. I am only just putting pieces toghether, until I am unable when they all fall out eventually. and darkness consumes me, and silence.

feel it.

I feel like someone just killed me accidently. In the back of their mind they knew exactly what they were doing, and yet, in the front of their mind is a wall with holes that only lets so much from the back out. Thank you, thank you for lying to me for as long as you did. And honestly, with such a disgusting pig, thats your choice? lies are what you spit out, and lies are what you will be taking in for as long as this lasts. I hope you hurt.

safe never felt so terrible

When I say that I think it is safe to say that my life is gay, I am only facing the truth, ok? Almost as if I am setting myself on fire, the days are growing longer and faster do I tire. I can't withstand all these repetative events, like weather does not on a certain teflon tent. and yet I am still alive, but for what purpose do I strive? and where do my thoughts derive? and ...